[ because you don't fucking go to sleep GO TO SLEEP
Jeanne's voice is soft, understanding. She doesn't know Izumo's relationship with Kano, but she can tell something happened that deepened it, and it is sad to have someone taken away from you so soon, too soon. ]
You are right. We did fail, and so we are suffering for it. The circumstances are not fair.
It is not fair that he left you. It is not fair that he had to choose to leave you.
[ STOP. I SLEPT YESTERDAY...... and will ruin my sleep for the next few days for valid reasons.
does izumo even understand her relationship with kano? hm. no one will know because i'll never tell, but what can be known is how jeanne's words and demeanor just irritate izumo even more. she can't put her finger as to what pisses her off, but just. something. ]
You call that display giving him a choice?
[ she wasn't deaf to the yelling—the way they quickly turned on him for fighting for his life. so quick to feel guilty for convicting an innocent person but then also so quick to judge as soon as they fight for their life. it pissed her off. ]
He wasn't given much of anything when it was going to end the same way. He only managed to take his own life because the leaders weren't smart enough to check him.
[ Her softness fades, and Jeanne's demeanor shifts almost imperceptibly. Her words are not hard or harsh, but they are firm, ironclad. ]
He made his choice during the trial. As a group, we should not have been so distracted by him, and we failed there, but he made a choice to not cooperate. He did not deserve to be voted guilty for a crime he did not commit, but it is what happened.
[ They cannot change the past. They cannot change that is the result of all their cumulative choices. ]
None of the wishes he's told me were wrong, but he did make a choice because if he did nothing, I would have robbed him of what little options he had.
As much as it hurts, do not take that away from him.
[ As much as it hurt Jeanne to watch, as much as it hurt her that that's what occurred, she can bury those feelings to acknowledge what Kano chose. ]
[ she would bite back with how it wasn't as if he wasn't entirely unwilling, but that sometimes there are reasons why people do or don't do things. if she had been available, he would have allowed her. he would have listened to her. ...but they were in the middle of a murder investigation and she isn't stupid enough to think that alone is an excusable reason.
there's a temptation to comment how one thing is always missed in the favor of the other. how it was ignored all that he did in favor for all that he didn't, but jeanne doesn't ignore how it was a collective failure—one that izumo had no hand in—so she holds her tongue. ]
Don't tell me how I should live my life. I'll decide on that for my own.
[ however miserable and ugly it is. ]
What we should be doing is thinking of better ways to handle what happened. How not to waste time. What to do about the person who got away.
[ Jeanne is an observer, and so she knows. She remembers Knoa's questions in the beginning. She knows his behavior shifted to something else. It was not ignored by her, but that is also what made his ending behavior so much more flagrant. ]
If that is how you must be, then that is as sincere as your feelings will be.
[ She knows Izumo is hurting and grieving, but Jeanne does not put blinders on for anyone. Izumo did not want gentleness, so she will not receive it. ]
Do you really think others aren't thinking the same thing? If that is what you think what we must do, do you have an idea of who it must be?
[ she doesn't mind the lack of gentle hands. so few people have succeeded in her accepting such tenderness anyway. ]
I suspect there are those who are thinking about those things and I also suspect that there are those who feel defeatist about what happened. [ it seems so logical, she's not blind to it. ] That's how people are, right?
[ jeanne is trying to put her on the spot and that's fine. what good are her words anyway? apparently given her stance, it has made her discreditable. ]
If I knew who it was without a doubt, I would have confronted them already about it but there's no way that I do. If I were to implicate anyone of a crime then it would be the twins. They were helpful but nothing says that a murderer cannot help in their own crime to seem innocent.
[ Jeanne also figures Izumo wouldn't want comfort from the person who yeeted Kano out into space. She tries not to do too much in poor taste. She's trying.
Jeanne isn't putting Izumo in any spot because this is where Izumo steered the conversation? Her questions were calm, not accusatory. An if, then type of tone. She is trying to take and consider what Izumo says because Jeanne is Ruler and moves to be fair in all ways. ]
People doubt and they falter, yes, but that isn't all they do.
[ People rise and steady, too. What they're all motivated by is all different, but that's what makes them who they are.
She nods. ]
I'll take that into consideration. [ She is sincere, and she doesn't disagree. ] As much as I hope the blonde hair is decisive, that it wasn't exact makes me wonder if we aren't focusing too much on it.
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Jeanne's voice is soft, understanding. She doesn't know Izumo's relationship with Kano, but she can tell something happened that deepened it, and it is sad to have someone taken away from you so soon, too soon. ]
You are right. We did fail, and so we are suffering for it. The circumstances are not fair.
It is not fair that he left you. It is not fair that he had to choose to leave you.
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does izumo even understand her relationship with kano? hm. no one will know because i'll never tell, but what can be known is how jeanne's words and demeanor just irritate izumo even more. she can't put her finger as to what pisses her off, but just. something. ]
You call that display giving him a choice?
[ she wasn't deaf to the yelling—the way they quickly turned on him for fighting for his life. so quick to feel guilty for convicting an innocent person but then also so quick to judge as soon as they fight for their life. it pissed her off. ]
He wasn't given much of anything when it was going to end the same way. He only managed to take his own life because the leaders weren't smart enough to check him.
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[ Her softness fades, and Jeanne's demeanor shifts almost imperceptibly. Her words are not hard or harsh, but they are firm, ironclad. ]
He made his choice during the trial. As a group, we should not have been so distracted by him, and we failed there, but he made a choice to not cooperate. He did not deserve to be voted guilty for a crime he did not commit, but it is what happened.
[ They cannot change the past. They cannot change that is the result of all their cumulative choices. ]
None of the wishes he's told me were wrong, but he did make a choice because if he did nothing, I would have robbed him of what little options he had.
As much as it hurts, do not take that away from him.
[ As much as it hurt Jeanne to watch, as much as it hurt her that that's what occurred, she can bury those feelings to acknowledge what Kano chose. ]
We must live with how we drove him to that fate.
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there's a temptation to comment how one thing is always missed in the favor of the other. how it was ignored all that he did in favor for all that he didn't, but jeanne doesn't ignore how it was a collective failure—one that izumo had no hand in—so she holds her tongue. ]
Don't tell me how I should live my life. I'll decide on that for my own.
[ however miserable and ugly it is. ]
What we should be doing is thinking of better ways to handle what happened. How not to waste time. What to do about the person who got away.
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If that is how you must be, then that is as sincere as your feelings will be.
[ She knows Izumo is hurting and grieving, but Jeanne does not put blinders on for anyone. Izumo did not want gentleness, so she will not receive it. ]
Do you really think others aren't thinking the same thing? If that is what you think what we must do, do you have an idea of who it must be?
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I suspect there are those who are thinking about those things and I also suspect that there are those who feel defeatist about what happened. [ it seems so logical, she's not blind to it. ] That's how people are, right?
[ jeanne is trying to put her on the spot and that's fine. what good are her words anyway? apparently given her stance, it has made her discreditable. ]
If I knew who it was without a doubt, I would have confronted them already about it but there's no way that I do. If I were to implicate anyone of a crime then it would be the twins. They were helpful but nothing says that a murderer cannot help in their own crime to seem innocent.
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Jeanne isn't putting Izumo in any spot because this is where Izumo steered the conversation? Her questions were calm, not accusatory. An if, then type of tone. She is trying to take and consider what Izumo says because Jeanne is Ruler and moves to be fair in all ways. ]
People doubt and they falter, yes, but that isn't all they do.
[ People rise and steady, too. What they're all motivated by is all different, but that's what makes them who they are.
She nods. ]
I'll take that into consideration. [ She is sincere, and she doesn't disagree. ] As much as I hope the blonde hair is decisive, that it wasn't exact makes me wonder if we aren't focusing too much on it.