⚖️ jeanne catch-all

[sacredchants]

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[sacredchants]

[ hours late because idk wtf happened to my entire existence for several hours. ]

Everything—the foundation of everything between us was nothing but a lie.

[discernments]

[ shhhhh time is a lie ]

And what was the foundation?

[sacredchants]

[ time, in fact, is a lie. ]

Didn't you hear? Our supposed friendship, though I guess he didn't really say it in that many words.

I was the idiot who allowed myself to believe in it.

[discernments]

[ Her voice is gentle as she repeats the words Izumo said earlier: ]

But he would go to lengths to protect you. Why do you think that is?

[ Even if it's not friendship, there is still something there. ]

[sacredchants]

[ she knows where jeanne is going and. it's...something. ]

If you think that it's because he cares for me, then I have no idea if that's true or not.

[ there are moments?? but then everything is tainted. ]

At what point do his lies stop and become truth... I don't know.

[discernments]

[ naru your fucking timestamp

She looks thoughtful for a moment. ]

I'm not sure if he knows either, but I know he felt something. I'm more interested in what you think and feel for him, though.

What are your feelings, Izumo?

[sacredchants]

[ STOP. I REALLY LOST TRACK OF TIME LAST NIGHT.

but...honestly? she's not sure if jeanne's response is supposed to do anything other than be a statement. not that she minds... ]

I feel disgusted whenever I look at him.

[discernments]

Because...?

[ It's a gentle prompt. ]

[sacredchants]

[ ....

she tried. ]

It doesn't matter anymore. Tomorrow will be the last time I see him.

[discernments]

Your feelings don't disappear because someone dies, Izumo. I know you know this.

[ She can feign all she wants, but Izumo doesn't seem like the type who can easily turn off or compartmentalize her feelings. ]

[sacredchants]

[ jeanne is entirely correct but it doesn't mean that izumo won't try to reject it. ]

There's nothing gained from holding onto them.

[discernments]

What do you think will happen if you do?

[sacredchants]

[ .... ]

It'll just fester and keep being unpleasant.

[discernments]

There are ways to process emotions, so they don't become that way.

[ It's called talking about them or doing something about them.

You know, what Jeanne is trying to get Izumo to do. ]

[sacredchants]

[ YEAH DOES SHE LOOK LIKE SHE'S GOOD AT IT THOUGH???

which is to say that she'll turn from jeanne and know what she's getting at. not like just understanding it all will make things any easier. (also i guess i can give context to all of this since it's memshare in week 4) ]

I'm fine as I am.