sacredchants | ⚖️ jeanne catch-all

[ Well, we'll see, won't we? That victim list sure is something. ]

Yes, my team has. We should have met the criteria this week.

[ IT SURE IS. it's why she's thinking as she is. ]

I see, then that's two; only three more to account for.

[ ... ]

Ruler, if by some chance, you happen to find yourself in a situation where you know of a team who will be still lacking the necessary numbers—I'd ask you for to have them meet me. I'll gladly take that role.

[ aka please find someone to stab her. ]

[ There is something she says that causes a flicker of confusion, but in a blink, it's gone.

She is silent for a moment. ]

Why are you offering yourself like this?

Because if these murders have to take place then I, at least, want to give them someone who would be willing to make it easier on them.

[ and another reason as well, but that's neither here nor there. ]

[ are we sure about that

Because Jeanne isn't so sure about that. ]

Is that the only reason? I'll only consider it if you're completely truthful about your reasons, Izumo.

[ Life and death aren't to be taken lightly. ]

[ it sure isn't but they can be brought back??? if things go as planned. but...there's only a moment of hesitation before she lowers her head. ]

Alphinaud.

[ yeah yeah... ]

I will gladly fill in the roll of a victim if it means he will spared. I know for a fact that my team would not go out of their way to hurt him, but I don't know about others.

[ mob was so well liked??? she can't hold anything for certain anymore. ]

[ Jeanne's expression softens. ]

Do you think Alphinaud would accept it so easily if you go? Even if we are working on bringing everyone back, that does not erase the pain of loss.

He will still feel losing you, Izumo.

Just as you would feel the loss of him, were he to go. Just as you fear how much you will feel if he does.

[ shame izumo can't see it as she just folds further down on herself. ]

Losing someone isn't unfamiliar to anyone, especially to anyone here. Everyone has lost someone and I don't think myself any more special above anyone else, but just once—I want to be given the idea that I could protect someone precious to me.

[ she has lost someone nearly every week here or had a pretty terrible week for four weeks straight. just give her this one time. please... ]

I want to believe I can do something.

Is it protecting someone if you also hurt them?

[ It's not pointed. It's only a question she wants to know Izumo's answer to. In truth, Jeanne's done much to hurt the people she cares for in order to do what she thinks is necessary, in order to do what she thinks she must.

In order to protect, Jeanne has also hurt. ]

There is more than one way to do something and to protect than offering your life, Izumo. Do you treasure his life more or his feelings?

[ jeanne's final question to her has her thinking for a while. his life or his feelings? are those different things that she needs to consider? if he isn't alive then his feelings will become just like another memory... her words are firm when she replies, though there's an edge of desperation to it. ]

I treasure him. [ her treasures. how many of those does she have left? ] It's not like I want to be separated from him, but if that's what needs to happen to make sure that we do what's necessary and protect him? Then I'd do it.

[ naru can you explain this time stamp

Feelings are never so clear cut or so easy to separate, so she won't point out how Izumo knows people will come back, if everyone can manage to coordinate things correctly.

Loss is still loss, not matter how it comes and no matter how long it lasts. ]

If you treasure him, please talk to him about it.

[ Jeanne is making a guess that Alphinaud doesn't know Izumo is going around asking people to kill her. ]

If you have his acceptance, I will consider it.

[ i wish i could tbh, but i passed the fuck out after writing this... i know that much.

she doesn't need to point it out since that's another reason why she would be willing to do this trade. it's a temporary one should everyone do their part. ...but it is still a loss. ]

He... [ her voice trails not because she struggles with finding the answer, but more that she knows what the answer is. ] He would never accept it.

[ she doesn't even bother thinking otherwise because it's an answer she knows without a doubt. ]

No matter how temporary it would be.

And you wouldn't accept it if he were going around doing what you're doing, would you?

[ Here's her other pointed question, but it's not asked that pointedly. ]

[ ...yeah. yeah, she gets the point that jeanne is trying to make here, or, well, not even trying at this point. ]

There's no way he'd consider it in the first place.

He's probably still looking for a way where we won't have to do this. [ she smiles slightly at it. ] It's almost admirable how he can think that way.

I do like that about him. It is good to think flexibly, if you can. So long as he doesn't completely close himself off or run away from what's in front of us, I think it's fine.

[ It's one thing to see what they need to do and still try and find another way, and it's another thing to completely shut your eyes to the necessity in front of you without any consideration.

She thinks Alphinaud is more the former than the latter. ]

Supposedly he's a strategist and I wouldn't think anyone who considers themselves a strategist being someone who could only think in fixed ways.

[ though, jeanne's other comment about what he should avoid to do and be fine while doing so... well. that has izumo deeper in thought for a moment. ]

I wonder...

[ supposedly... shouldn't you believe in your boyfriend more, izumo? ]

No matter the profession or beliefs, there are some things people can't give up or budge on.

[ if you want to get philosophical anyway. ]

You wonder...?

[ she does!!! but she's also a tsundere and there are places where she'll be unabashedly soft for him. those places aren't in front of most. ]

About Alphinaud. If you think that he's not closing himself off from what's happening... [ her voice trails once again as she contemplates a few things before deciding against it. ]

I'll find out one way or another.

You think he is?

I'm surprised you don't.

[ but then again, izumo likely spends way more time with him than anyone else here. ]

I think you have a different idea of what I mean by closing himself off, but I suppose your views are what they are from whatever conversations you have with him.

[ She feels like this is the case half the time they talk.

what jeanne's point is/
/what izumo thinks jeanne's point is ]

[ I THINK THEY'RE ON THE SAME PAGE FOR THIS ONE AT LEAST???

PROBABLY??? but the world will never know because izumo will never explain herself properly. i'm in tears. ]

Perhaps, but it doesn't matter one way or another. I've probably said too much already.

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